the support hearing and my need to vent...

about the support hearing, and my need to vent...

the support hearing was a real eye opener for me.
i was fairly sure that they would cut the support, and that didn't really bother me as much as what he said...and that i wasn't allowed to be heard. i know that now is the time to put me first, then the girls...i have to do it, so that they can do it.

don't get me wrong, i was sad; but today am feeling rather feisty...and froggy!
he's a f*** up, we all know it...and that's fine.

i know that i have been on a roller coaster ride for the past two years now...and between you and me...i usually love roller coasters! but it's time for this one to stop...and for me to get off. the girls and i will be ok. we've always had each other, and will continue to do so. i'm not afraid of being "alone"...i've been doing that for a very long time now...i worry more about how i will take care of things...but i will...i'll find a way...and it will all be good.

i think i need to go to one of the many theme parks in florida, and hop on a REAL roller coaster! how much fun that will be!!!!

support hearing...

i had my support hearing this morning, via phone conference.
just listening to him talk made me feel ill.
he was so smug and so arrogant.
honestly, if i didn't recognize his voice, i wouldn't have known it was him.

he said during the hearing that i took the girls and abandoned
him...leaving him with the house and all payments associated with it.
i abandoned him.

what a concept.

he wouldn't admit that he moved up there to be with his girlfriend, and that he was living in her house that was already established, and paid for. he said that this hearing had nothing to do with that. he also stated that he took a $26,000 pay cut to move up there, and that he couldn't afford to live. essentially, he went from making $91,000 a year (including military retirement) to $65,700. And he's having trouble making it. He said that i left him broke, leaving him with marital bills.

who filed for bankruptcy? oh yeah...that was me.

he also said (in one breath, mind you) that he would always take care of his girls, and that I knew that. He also said that Brittany would be emanicpated in June, and that all support for her would be terminated.

Huh?

He said that he would help Brittany and Shannon with college, but that Brittany needs to get off her butt and start filling out apps for grants and financial aid.

We have no dental insurance, and he couldn't/wouldn't answer why he did not tell us...we've been asking since november. the worst part is, he isn't going to provide any for the girls, either.

what a guy.

i know you have to be in as much shock as i am...i don't know what happened to the guy i used to know, but he's long gone...looking out for #1 who happens to be last on all of our lists.

oh yeah...he got his wish...they cut the support that he has to pay...not that he's been paying it all anyway. should have known.

really, its not about the money...not at all. i just don't understand why he can do what he wants, and has been for the past two years...probably longer...and there is no recourse...nothing matters...nobody cares...he just keeps winning.

Why?

this needs to be my motto...

Being defeated is often only a temporary condition.
Giving up is what makes it permanent.

damnit, janet...will you just get this through your head already??!!??!!

:)

please, can't "this" be done already?!

i'm tired.
i'm done.
i'm ready...
come on...
it's got to change...
doesn't it?