the support hearing and my need to vent...

about the support hearing, and my need to vent...

the support hearing was a real eye opener for me.
i was fairly sure that they would cut the support, and that didn't really bother me as much as what he said...and that i wasn't allowed to be heard. i know that now is the time to put me first, then the girls...i have to do it, so that they can do it.

don't get me wrong, i was sad; but today am feeling rather feisty...and froggy!
he's a f*** up, we all know it...and that's fine.

i know that i have been on a roller coaster ride for the past two years now...and between you and me...i usually love roller coasters! but it's time for this one to stop...and for me to get off. the girls and i will be ok. we've always had each other, and will continue to do so. i'm not afraid of being "alone"...i've been doing that for a very long time now...i worry more about how i will take care of things...but i will...i'll find a way...and it will all be good.

i think i need to go to one of the many theme parks in florida, and hop on a REAL roller coaster! how much fun that will be!!!!