What is Going On?

I don't sleep much.
But still,
I had a dream last night.
Dare I say who it was about???
Yeah...Mr. Wonderful.
What is going on?
I can't understand it.
In my dream, he wanted to come home.
He wanted to be part of the family again.
He was sorry for everything.
He missed us.
OK~Whatever!!!
Why did I have a dream like that?
He doesn't want to come back...
and more importantly...
I don't want him to.
Sure, it would be kind of cool if he wanted to...
so I could turn him down.
(mean, maybe...but true)
So...why did I have this dream?
I don't understand.
When is this nonsense called "my life" going to end?
I am so ready for something new in my life.
Geez!
I just don't understand.