This if MY Beautiful Life...(yeah, right!)...heehee!!!
My Mr. Wonderful has tried to intimidate me once again.
This time, with the pre-tense of bringing his lawyer into my world...once again...to do what is right for "his" kids. (I've been told that I'm not doing my job as a mother. Not doing what needs to be done to take care of my girls.) uh...psycho comes to mind!
Yeah, right. My girls are my life. And everything I do is with them in mind. They are my world. I am about at my wits end with this man...scratch that!!!...I AM AT MY WITS END!
He has some nerve trying to intimidate me, when he's the one that just can't face the music...he doesn't want to believe that my girls are angry at him for everything he has done. I just can't figure this out. I try to protect my girls. I try to keep them happy, and healthy, and sane. And its always my fault when the girls are angry with him, lash out at him, don't want to talk to him.
I don't know what to do any more. I really just want him to leave me alone. He has gotten everything he wanted...he got rid of me...he has a new life...a newer, younger woman...he doesn't have HIS kids, but he has hers...he makes no effort what so ever to see HIS kids, and he's mad at me for everything. What did I miss? I must have been asleep in class when the teacher gave out the notes. Because my oldest daughter has an attitude with her dad, he wants to get the lawyers involved...and for what? Does he think he's going to take my girls away from me? Does he think he can possibly do that? I'm sorry that they aren't getting along...I really am. I don't want my daughters to grow up with out their father in their lives. But he isn't much acting like a father, is he?
You know...I just want to wake up one time...after having a wonderful, full nights sleep...and feel relaxed, and happy...just to be here. It has been so long...I can't remember. I want to be happy. I don't want to be lonely anymore. I want the life that I always dreamed of. I want someone to love, and someone who loves me. I want my children to be happy, and carefree. I want them to have a positive role model in their life...someone they can look up to, and be proud to call their dad. Is it out of my reach? Am I asking to much?
This time, with the pre-tense of bringing his lawyer into my world...once again...to do what is right for "his" kids. (I've been told that I'm not doing my job as a mother. Not doing what needs to be done to take care of my girls.) uh...psycho comes to mind!
Yeah, right. My girls are my life. And everything I do is with them in mind. They are my world. I am about at my wits end with this man...scratch that!!!...I AM AT MY WITS END!
He has some nerve trying to intimidate me, when he's the one that just can't face the music...he doesn't want to believe that my girls are angry at him for everything he has done. I just can't figure this out. I try to protect my girls. I try to keep them happy, and healthy, and sane. And its always my fault when the girls are angry with him, lash out at him, don't want to talk to him.
I don't know what to do any more. I really just want him to leave me alone. He has gotten everything he wanted...he got rid of me...he has a new life...a newer, younger woman...he doesn't have HIS kids, but he has hers...he makes no effort what so ever to see HIS kids, and he's mad at me for everything. What did I miss? I must have been asleep in class when the teacher gave out the notes. Because my oldest daughter has an attitude with her dad, he wants to get the lawyers involved...and for what? Does he think he's going to take my girls away from me? Does he think he can possibly do that? I'm sorry that they aren't getting along...I really am. I don't want my daughters to grow up with out their father in their lives. But he isn't much acting like a father, is he?
You know...I just want to wake up one time...after having a wonderful, full nights sleep...and feel relaxed, and happy...just to be here. It has been so long...I can't remember. I want to be happy. I don't want to be lonely anymore. I want the life that I always dreamed of. I want someone to love, and someone who loves me. I want my children to be happy, and carefree. I want them to have a positive role model in their life...someone they can look up to, and be proud to call their dad. Is it out of my reach? Am I asking to much?
posted by Janet @ 3:05 PM
1 Comments:
At 1:59 PM,
todd day said…
I'm so sorry to hear about him being such a butthead. I had hoped that after you and the girls moved and got settled down in Florida, that he would chill out and let you be.
Evidently not. Some people never learn I guess.
I wish I had some real, useable advice on this subject but I sort of feel helpless when it comes to issues with kids and rights and custody .. that sort of thing. I guess because I never had to face any of that with my own breakup.
But I will say this .... just keep on keeping on being you and doing all the same stuff you're doing now. That's the way I see it. Right now I can't see anything you're doing wrong, and I believe a judge would see it the same way. I wonder sometimes if Bruce is trying to provoke you into doing something rash, or stupid, so he can use it against you in court when that time comes? Sometimes exe's like to try and make the other party appear "unstable" or not in their right mind.
From what you've said before, I don't think you have to worry about what the kids think. The girls have to be on your side. I hope they are. Can't see anything to the contrary. So don't let him goad you into doing or saying anything he can use against you!
That's the only thing I know to tell you. He's been farking up since day one of the split, and he will probably continue to fark up. Let him. He will hang himself when it comes court time.
Oh well ...... I know you probably just needed to vent ..... but maybe I helped a smidge .... LOL ...
I hope your day has gone well, otherwise .... exe's notwithstanding! heehee
toddster
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